I can tell it is going to be one of those weeks already. Have a Statis Hearing this Thursday, with Joshua Scott over the knives made in his cell that more than likely get postponed again. I go to every hearing anyway because you never know what is going to happen. I got a bill in the mail again for Ashleigh. I would like to know.....how many times do I have to call these people and explain that my daughter is dead? She is not going to be able to pay that bill, I don't care how many statements you send me. I hate that I call them everytime and they say they are "so sorry" and will take care of the account, yet here we are.......just absolutely frustrating. Worst of all, this Friday will be the first Friday the 13th since Ashleigh passed away. I'm not sure how to feel, yet. Prayed about it a lot today. Sometimes certain emotions come, sadness, anger, hate, loneliness etc.......those times are easier to deal with than when you have Every Emotion hit you all at once. I think this week is going to be one of those that you just can't explain and only someone who has lost a child so violently can understand. I guess that is why I have relied on God so heavily. He knows what that is like to watch a child die so violently. Yet, Jesus did that willingly for us. Gave his life. I still consider myself blessed because I will be with Ashleigh again. I just miss her so much now!
This is a chronicle of the grieving process at the murder of my daughter, Ashleigh Marie Lindsey and her unborn Baby Patience Lynn. They call the parentless child an orphan & the married person who loses their mate a widow/widower but what do they call a parent who loses a child? There is no word given for the parent who have seen this kind of untimely death.
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