I miss you so and cannot wait for the day when I can hold you in my arms.
The day you left has been my saddest and I have been counting the days until we can be together again.
I am growing flowers in my garden and as they bloom it reminds me of how our love grew. From just one tiny seed ...into the very beautiful blossom had become you.
I dream of your perfect face each and every night and of your tender kisses and warm embraces.
The ones only a tender little girl could give to her mommy.
You were so much fun and I am afraid I will have to learn how to live and have fun again.
I am so grateful you came into my life for without you, my life would have been empty of all inspiration.
There would have been no work of art for me to gaze at in your face, no person of greatness before me deep in your soul, no timeless melody to listen to because of your voice.
Without you life would have existed in shades of gray instead of vibrant colors, and I will be less than whole.
Even then a piece of me has gone with you and will not return till we are together again.
I'm laying here in the dark alone, with images of you in my mind.
Your warmth, kindness, laughter and the long talks we would have together.
I wonder where you are, what you are doing now that you are not with me.
Are you thinking of me, are you wondering the same? I can't go through a day without talking to you.
I pretend that I'm touching your face with my hand or stoking your hair like when you were sick to make it all better.
My head tells me God has you safe and happy but my heart still tells me that you need me for comfort.
I still see my little girl needing her mothers love to wipe it all away but truth is your mother is the one in pain and not you.
So, I have to put it in yours and God's hands now to help me make it thru the day and especially the nights.
Don't worry, I promised it was ok to go and that I would be alright. I meant it darling daughter.
I just didn't say how hard it was going to be without you everyday.
I love you Ashleigh, with everything I have in my heart.