Doing what has to be done till we can be together again.
It's been no secret that I have been down the last few weeks. And I've been struggling with losing Ashleigh. But I wanted to share some good news that I had gotten today. It has me really excited but first I have to tell you about a dream I had the other night, because the two kind of tied in together for me.
Three nights ago, I had this dream where I was down in the downtown area during the festival and the streets were full of people and I was looking for Ashleigh. Well, I'm running and looking for her everywhere and instead I ran into my grandma. My grandma was standing there before me and she was the most beautiful I have ever seen her. I ran into her arms and I cried and she held me close. I said,"grandma I can't find Ashleigh and I miss her." My grandma said,"I know. She is always close by." I said that I can't find her and I'm lost without her then my grandma told me that Ashleigh was just really busy but if I needed her to just call her. So, I pulled my cell phone out of my pocket and my grandma reached over and grabbed it and said," no not with that. Just call out her name and she will come." So I started yelling out," Ashleigh .... Ashleigh." And then Ashleigh appeared. She was beautiful and I ran straight for her arms and hug her and cried on her shoulder. I then told her, "I miss you and I love you" and she told me," I know, I miss and love you too." I said,"I want to be with you I want to be together again." She told me she wanted to be with me too and we hug and cried. I said, "okay well I'm staying with you." And she said, "mom you can. Right now I have things that I have to do on my own. You have things you have to do on your own. And into they are done we can't be together again." I told her I didn't care I wanted to be with her. She said," I love you mom I have to go it will be okay we'll be together again soon." She started to leave and I followed her. She turned around and cocked her little head and put her arm on her waist and got this big attitude with me and said, "Mom! You can't come with me you have to stay here but when your work is done then we can be together again and it won't be as long as you think." I cried. I said okay. And then she left.
I tell you this because I was really really upset thinking I didn't care what it was that I had still to do, I just wanted to be with Ashleigh. But then today I got a wake up call from a senator from Oklahoma named Josh Bersheen. He called me this morning in response to email I sent him. The email was to discuss writing new legislation that would protect other women from things that have happened to Ashleigh. He had agreed for me to write down what we had discussed and send it to him and that he would help write bills to put before the state of Oklahoma that would change women and children's lives that were involved in domestic violence. It could save women and keep the system from failing them the way fell Ashleigh and Patience. So now, I have this whole big plan of how I'm going to do this and how to not only get it done in a Oklahoma,Texas and every state in the union.
Then to make my day even better I find out from the organization I Will Stand International who is our parent chapter for the Ashleigh's Patience Project that we got our 501(c)(3) approval today. So things are moving rather fast. I'm not sure what all God has planned with all of this but I know that these are the things that Ashleigh said that need to be done before we could be together again. Ashleigh, I will get them done and I will have great legacy to leave behind for future generations of young women. Mommy loves you!!! .
So be looking for in the next couple of months for me to be putting up Ashleigh's and Patience's Laws and I hope that you the public who have been so supportive will help back these laws. Ashleigh's law will be based on the emergency protective order system. So that other want young women will not be stocked from the courthouse to her home to be found by her abusers. Patience's law will be based on if an abuser attacks a pregnant woman with intent to hurt or kill the pregnant baby. Then a protective order will be extended over that child upon birth until a family court judge can determine visitation. Those are just the basics of what they will be about.
I am really excited to get this done and make a difference so that no other mother should have to bury a child or grandchild and see the system failed them the way I saw them fail my Ashleigh and Patience.
Three nights ago, I had this dream where I was down in the downtown area during the festival and the streets were full of people and I was looking for Ashleigh. Well, I'm running and looking for her everywhere and instead I ran into my grandma. My grandma was standing there before me and she was the most beautiful I have ever seen her. I ran into her arms and I cried and she held me close. I said,"grandma I can't find Ashleigh and I miss her." My grandma said,"I know. She is always close by." I said that I can't find her and I'm lost without her then my grandma told me that Ashleigh was just really busy but if I needed her to just call her. So, I pulled my cell phone out of my pocket and my grandma reached over and grabbed it and said," no not with that. Just call out her name and she will come." So I started yelling out," Ashleigh .... Ashleigh." And then Ashleigh appeared. She was beautiful and I ran straight for her arms and hug her and cried on her shoulder. I then told her, "I miss you and I love you" and she told me," I know, I miss and love you too." I said,"I want to be with you I want to be together again." She told me she wanted to be with me too and we hug and cried. I said, "okay well I'm staying with you." And she said, "mom you can. Right now I have things that I have to do on my own. You have things you have to do on your own. And into they are done we can't be together again." I told her I didn't care I wanted to be with her. She said," I love you mom I have to go it will be okay we'll be together again soon." She started to leave and I followed her. She turned around and cocked her little head and put her arm on her waist and got this big attitude with me and said, "Mom! You can't come with me you have to stay here but when your work is done then we can be together again and it won't be as long as you think." I cried. I said okay. And then she left.
I tell you this because I was really really upset thinking I didn't care what it was that I had still to do, I just wanted to be with Ashleigh. But then today I got a wake up call from a senator from Oklahoma named Josh Bersheen. He called me this morning in response to email I sent him. The email was to discuss writing new legislation that would protect other women from things that have happened to Ashleigh. He had agreed for me to write down what we had discussed and send it to him and that he would help write bills to put before the state of Oklahoma that would change women and children's lives that were involved in domestic violence. It could save women and keep the system from failing them the way fell Ashleigh and Patience. So now, I have this whole big plan of how I'm going to do this and how to not only get it done in a Oklahoma,Texas and every state in the union.
Then to make my day even better I find out from the organization I Will Stand International who is our parent chapter for the Ashleigh's Patience Project that we got our 501(c)(3) approval today. So things are moving rather fast. I'm not sure what all God has planned with all of this but I know that these are the things that Ashleigh said that need to be done before we could be together again. Ashleigh, I will get them done and I will have great legacy to leave behind for future generations of young women. Mommy loves you!!! .
So be looking for in the next couple of months for me to be putting up Ashleigh's and Patience's Laws and I hope that you the public who have been so supportive will help back these laws. Ashleigh's law will be based on the emergency protective order system. So that other want young women will not be stocked from the courthouse to her home to be found by her abusers. Patience's law will be based on if an abuser attacks a pregnant woman with intent to hurt or kill the pregnant baby. Then a protective order will be extended over that child upon birth until a family court judge can determine visitation. Those are just the basics of what they will be about.
I am really excited to get this done and make a difference so that no other mother should have to bury a child or grandchild and see the system failed them the way I saw them fail my Ashleigh and Patience.
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