First, it was very hard during one part because we went back to the house were Ashleigh was shot. I was not there tha...t day but if seen the descriptions and photos of the crime seen. Where Ashleigh and Joshua Mahaffey were. I also remember what that crime seen looked like 3 days later when we went to go pick up Ashleigh's truck. They closed off the house because hazmat need to come in to clean it. Heather and Jim didn't want me to see that but.......well if you know me, you know I don't listen well once I get something in my head. I defied the police tape and went in to see. I HAD TOO SEE. I can't explain it any better than that.....anyway.......when taking the Documentary Team thru the house I found myself in that bathroom explaining positions and I could still envision the blood on the floors even though all of that had been replaced. But it was so surreal because I did it like and presented it like it was just facts. When Jim and I got in the car to move to the next location he was like "how did you do that? I'm proud of you. You are one strong woman." And my response to him was, "only God helped me just like that day in the hospital. Plus Ashleigh did not die there. Ashleigh denied Joshua Mahaffey with all her strength not to die there with him. I am proud of her on that level as her mother. Josh died there not her and I'm glad he is dead." For me that bathroom is a symbol of Ashleigh's strength to fight even with the tragic outcome later. At that moment she was glorious in her battle even though it was the most terrifying of her life. That is how I was able to do that yesterday.
Second, we hit a bad place for a location there in Ardmore and needed a new you. Everyone was trying to come up with ideas. It looked bad there for a minute. Then, I think it was Crystal, thought maybe we could find a bookstore that would have an area private that we could use. She put in bookstores on her phone and called the first one. They graciously said yes. The place is called Ashley's Bookstore, there in Ardmore, OK. I immediately looked up and said thank you God and Ashleigh. For me it was a sign. A beautiful sign that brought joy to my heart. The owner is an incredible lady and I can't thank her enough for opening her business in such a way. It was my blessing for the day and I just wanted to share.