Right after Ashleigh left Joshua for good she told her Dad that she was struggling with things. People who know Ashleigh also know she made a lot of mistakes. Most of us look back at our teens and early twenties and have to admit how young and dumb we were back then. She was no exception but Ashleigh's heart was big and golden so everyone knew she was making her mistakes like all of us do. Anyway, she told her Dad that she was hurting because she had done a lot of bad things. That Joshua had forced her into I lot of bad things and she didnt know how to be forgiven. She didn't go into detail and Jim didn't ask details but it was bad enough she was crying. Her Father's response to her was, "Have you asked God to forgive you?" In which she said, "Yes". So her Dad huged her and said, "Well then darling, you've got to learn to forgive yourself."
How simple the answer and yet what a concept.........even I have had a lesson taught to me with those words. To many times, especially amonst Domestic Violence Survivors we forget to forgive ourselves. A week before Ashleigh died she went to her Dad and told him with a big hug and thank you that she had finally forgiven herself for the mistakes she had made in life. He said you could see that weight literally lifted off her shoulders.
I love you, Ashleigh and Im glad you found some peace in your heart and learned to love yourself before you left this world to be with your baby!
“To the angel of the church in Sardis write:
These are the words of him who holds the seven spirits of God and the seven stars. I know your deeds; you have a reputation of being alive, but you are dead. Wake up! Strengthen what remains and is about to die, for I have found your deeds unfinished in the sight of my God. Remember, therefore, what you have received and heard; hold it fast, and repent. But if you do not wake up, I will come like a thief, and you will not know at what time I will come .