In remembrance of Ashleigh and Patience the 2 candles are for them. Mother and daughter eternally together forever. The one in the angel is for my broken heart. To remind me that God has sent his Angels to comfort me till we are together again. | For days I've been working on my victims impact statement for court. Sentencing is this next Wednesday at 1 pm. So, crazy to believe this day has finally come. It is pulling me apart to write everything out. It burns me out to a point that I just have to walk away and come back to it often. I just want to scream all the time, "where is my mercy? Where is my compassion? Where is my justice?" I just want my Ashleigh back! It is an emotional roller coaster. Life shouldn't be like this but it is my reality | Tomorrow I will pull your beauty and memory out of the darkness and into the light for them all to see how you died in strength and love at the hands of your murderers. Mommy will do everything in her power to see earthly justice done and be awaiting God's greater perfect justice later. Love always and forever!!! |
One of Ashleigh & Patience's murderer will be forced to sit in court and listen to victims and their families describe the misery and heartache caused by both the Josh's crimes. Victims will be given the right to read out a statement in court and confront directly the criminal who damaged our lives. It will mean both Josh and the judge will be "left in no doubt’ about the full suffering of those hurt by his criminality. If the victims choose to, they will read their statement out before sentencing, allowing the judge to take into account what they have said before setting a jail term or other sentence. Ashleigh's Dad, Sister, Grandma and I will be doing this for our family. We will be given a guarantee that our side can be heard before sentencing begins. Like I said on my own personal page....Two more days till the sentencing in Ashleigh's trial. Lots of Family and Friends will be at my side but most of all I am not afraid because God is with me and never left my side. I believe Ashleigh will be with me as well when I confront one of her murderers. I will do this in love of her and Patience. please keep us in your prayers. | I keep going over and over this statement for tomorrow. I don't think I will get any sleep. Actually I know I won't sleep. How do you sum up a persons life in just a few pages? How do you convey who they really were inside? Nothing I have written for tomorrow does her justice to how wonderful she was and how much I adored her. Am I strong enough for this? Sometimes I wonder.....but I was strong enough to be there to the end so I guess this is really nothing in comparison. Something is just missing in this statement that I can't put my finger on. I think it is time to just shut myself in her room for the night and just pray that God reveals to me the inspiration that is somehow eluding me. Maybe in there I will find the words I am looking for..... |